i close my eyes, and..pray.

Oct 13, 2017
not fighting anymore

i am not going to fight for attention any more. not in class, not in groups, not in meetings at work, not in social settings. i am not going to be upset over the lack of attention anymore. dont vie for it anymore - it's not worth it and there's no point. how does a group with involved members look like? some fade away.. for someone to take notice. some fade away.. because they feel left out. some fade away... out of disinterest in the topic. some fade away..because they weren't asked to participate. what is the motivation behind staying focused? don't leave any man out of the conversation, just like you don't leave any man feeling excluded. know what acceptance and belonging means? i was hostile.. towards those that hogged the conversation. i was hostile.. towards those that expressed too much without giving others the time to speak. i was hostile.. because you acted in a manner like you are simply ignoring everyone else's needs. to be included feels great and we like the person who gives us that. to be excluded feels horrible and we dislike those who seem to do it on purpose. but even if there is no speaking opportunity being 'given', a simple eye contact and acknowledgement would do. it's still 'giving'. it's give and take. it's giving something only you can give that i find encouraging and supporting and make me feel like i am not just a shadow in the background. oh and one more thing, don't seem forced or 'trying too hard' to start a conversation. that's some big message you are saying...

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Sep 3, 2017
the perfect wisdom

The matchless wisdom of His ways, That mark the path of righteousness; His word a lamp unto my feet, His Spirit teaching and guiding me. And oh, the mystery of the cross, That God should suffer for the lost So that the fool might shame the wise, And all the glory might go to Christ! Oh grant me wisdom from above, To pray for peace and cling to love, And teach me humbly to receive The sun and rain of Your sovereignty. Each strand of sorrow has a place Within this tapestry of grace; So through the trials I choose to say: "Your perfect will in your perfect way."

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Aug 31, 2017
to whoever

prayed when i was young, prayed for miracles. who was I praying to? God. why? because i was helpless. how did I know there was a God? I don't, but I want to believe there is one. I needed Him. it was a cry to ease the brokenhearted, the weak and the lonely one. I wondered about the religious. I wondered about superstition. I wondered if there could be some truth in these beliefs. Not that I knew many. but there is this intriguing story of the cross, death, life. who really fits the image of Godliness? who really is the shepherd? to know we have fall short, all men are imperfect. to know we are discontented, unsatisfied, obsessed with so many things not worth obsessing over. to know we have disobeyed and once were lost, but now were found. to know we are broken, living in a polluted world, and we need reconciliation with one who is righteous and above all. to know of this word 'sacrifice' and what it meant. to know of an unselfish giving love that no man can imitate. to know what it means to be unworthy and undeserving of grace because we can see how unlovable we are. how many times we glorify ourselves instead of you. how unappreciative and ungrateful we are sometimes. how highly we think of ourselves when truly, our gifts come from you.

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Aug 21, 2017
you made me a, you made me a believer

going to bones and cells to search for the answers. going to fossils and dust to search for answers.
but it's fine because there's two ways of making sense of the world - outward and within demons.

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Aug 2, 2017
we are getting old

"was born out of hardship, i expect difficulties and challenges in life. " - from a vietnamese doctor passionate about empowerment, changing mindsets and policies, giving the voice to the marginalised.

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Jul 27, 2017
some are foxes , some are hedgehogs.

greatest fulfillment comes from relationships. <3
it's not about what you don't have but what you have.
cherish the moments of spending time together without all distractions.
opening up and being vulnerable, sharing what unites us, a sense of nakedness, bareness, truthfulness, acceptance of how broken we are, bonding over a simple relatable experience, the same heartbeat, dancing to the same tune. i think i just described 'connection' between people - or at least that's what it feels like. natural flow, therapeutic, warmth, closeness.

ps: do not take people for granted. \

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Jun 23, 2017
cross of christ

1. redemptive power.
2. unconditional love.
3. transformative power.
4. forgiveness and no condemnation.
5. solution of sin.
6. desire for righteousness.
7. change of heart.
8. desire for purity and goodness.
9. worth of self.
For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten son that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. - John 3:16

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Jun 22, 2017
flash of light

lightning right behind the clouds. thinking this is God, almighty, majestic. your night sky is a piece of canvas. you hold the world in your hands.

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Jun 14, 2017

hostility is a problem. its the cold, distant, aloof side that appears because it 'dislikes'... something. it's the part that has no love. it's the part that ignores and looks down and devalues. why? that is the question. why is it that you say you love but unlove in the blink of an eye?

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Jun 10, 2017
tails of a train.

ideal -> aim high -> never settle -> perfection. no expectations -> contented -> settle -> acceptance. self esteem -> humility -> improvement -> growth. evaluate -> opinions -> justification -> influence. perceptions -> beliefs -> values -> character. doubts -> clarification -> closure -> certainty. fears -> insecurities -> reassurance -> trust. choice -> responsibility -> management -> autonomy. dignity -> recognition -> acknowledgement -> respect. non-obligation -> gratitude -> reciprocity -> balance. goals -> priorities -> resources -> fulfillment. authenticity -> consistency -> example -> living out. interest -> passion -> motivation -> drive. failures -> opportunities -> lessons -> teachings. deceit -> avoidance -> overcoming -> truth. differences -> individuality -> diversity -> fusion. creativity -> inspiration -> ideas -> possibilities. capacity -> ability -> honing -> excellence. control -> rules -> stop enforcement -> unburdened. denial -> sacrifice -> giving -> selflessness. knowledge -> confidence -> application. hope -> optimism -> persistence. scarcity -> deprivation -> competition -> cooperation. pain -> experience -> empathy -> encouragement. altruism -> generosity -> volunteer. uncensored-> candid -> expressive -> communication. loss -> regret -> cherish -> appreciation. struggle -> hardships -> endurance -> achievements. curiosity -> wonder -> discovery -> enrichment. inequality -> unfairness -> judgement -> justice. open-minded -> exposure -> worldview -> sophistication. sensitivity -> gentle -> nurturing -> sympathy. structure -> plans -> flexibility -> spontaneity. sincerity -> earnest -> heartfelt -> genuine. foreboding -> anxiety -> quieten -> calmness.

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